Repost ... New mom needs help! Stopped medication. Please read!

Thank you for reading. I truly appreciate any insight you can offer.

I have stopped my levothyroxine medication. I would love some help finding a remedy ... please someone help me. I am on a path of change. Reducing stress, allowing myself to receive love.

I am a 36 (37 in February) female. I am 5' 6' and currently weigh 168 pounds - normally 135, just had a baby. Gained 50 pounds during pregnancy.

Diagnosed with Hashimoto's last year. I have some difficulty swallowing, like something is in the back of my throat near my thyroid. I lost my voice twice for no known reason the year before my hypothyroid diagnosis. I had severe nerve pain in both hands, felt like my nerves were dying and thought I was going to be paralyzed up to my elbows. Severe joint pain in hands, fingers, elbows. These have subsided.

Now I have slight joint pain. Stiffness in hands. Hard to clasp bra behind me. Drop things, smaller things. Making a fist is somewhat difficult.

I have food sensitivites to gluten, dairy, soy, tree nuts. I develop a rash. Look like scratches, welts in the shape of lines. Some bumps. These can be anywhere on my body. Arms, legs, thighs, neck. My ankles itch, My hands itch. Sometimes it happens when talking on the phone, pacing the house while talking. Usually happen before a bowel movement and subside after (same as when my daughter was an infant) I never had allergies before.

My daughter was born and she had this same reaction to the foods I ate through my breastmilk at around 5 months of age. I gave her probiotics and eventually the uticaria subsided at 18 months. Mine began about 3 years ago after an acupuncture treatment.

I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in 2002 before the birth of my first child. After this I began having pain in the tips of my big toes. I think it's hormone related. I notice this now on occasion. As if a needle is being pressed deep into the tip of my big toe - usually right foot.

I feel as though my body is split in half. The right side and left side not in harmony. My skin is drier and cracking on right thumb and foot. My right side of my body is also heavier - fatter.

My left side is affected at my jaw and my tmj is painful, my left ear is more sensitive and my head and neck jam at the base of my skull on the left side. Headaches come on with sensitivity to light when my neck hurts at base of skull. I lay in a dark room with my head on a stack of 5 bath towels and that helps relieve my head/neck ache.

I had a head injury in 1998, fell backward and hit my head on hard ground. Personality change. Developed stutter. I can only do one thing at a time. Noises distract and annoy me - especially high pitch sounds - like whistling. Strong smells bother me and instantly give me a headache. Fluorescent lights bother me, the humming sound and lighting. I hate things moving close to my face.

I just had a baby boy on 9/17. He is beautiful and brings me great joy. I was taking levothyroxine during the pregnancy because of low T4. TSH is always in the normal range, started at 25 mcg - ended up on 100 mcg. I have since weaned myself off. Was taking 15 mcg. every other day. I am exclusively breastfeeding. I feel pretty good overall - except for major outbursts. My eyes are dry and sometimes feel hot. My skin on my feet is extremely dry and cracking. Always thought it was athlete's foot. It cleared a lot while on levothyroxine.

I have a small cyst above gum on upper front tooth (left). I think it is sinus related, it has been there for many years. I have had 5 root canals and many fillings. My mother never took me to the dentist as a child. She would have me numb between my thumb and pointer finger with ice to take away the pain.

Feel like I am not heard by my family. Screaming and throwing things/tantrum. I scream at my 5 year old daughter. She says she is afraid of me and wants to hide when I get that way. Now she is taking on my negative traits. I really want this to change. I am unable to stop once started. I tell family, please stop, or please listen to my needs and they persist in an argument ... I can't take anymore and reach a breaking point and snap and can't stop the behavior ... just rage, screaming and throwing things that are messy and cluttered or disorganized (papers) that have not been put away properly, braking dishes (usually feel better after that release). Hitting my husband. Then my husband will say, look at what you're doing. Your traumatizing the family, act like a grown up ... and it's a vicious cycle. I am blamed and chastised for behaving badly because I am loud and out of control (which is bad behavior and I am not dismissing my actions)... but what I am screaming about is truth. But nobody listens to me because I am screaming. This has been a behavioral pattern since childhood.

My mother was very neglectful. I was the scapegoat in the family and blamed for all things wrong. This isn't my perception - my sister has aknowledged the difference in treatment of me and my siblings.

I wanted to leave home since age 5. Parents divorced when I was 8. I never liked my mother. I think she has a narcistic personality disorder. She is unable to love me. Yet favors my siblings.

I left home at age 13. Loved my dad. He really understood me. He passed away in 1999.

I feel like every one around me (husband especially) moves too slow. I am very critical.

I am afraid of the dark. After midnight I feel as if a ghost is behind me as if on my back.

I don't like closets to be open. I don't like when someone stands in the doorway - feel trapped.

I don't like warm rooms. Always feel like I need air. I like the window open and the heat on. I don't like dry air. I feel like I can't breath and my sinuses become very sensitive. I use a humidifier. I like the ocean.

I tend to feel paranoid when I am alone in the dark. If the baby is crying in my ear (left side) I become irrational or paranoid ... like a heightened fear ... sensing any and everything (thinking of ghosts etc) and need to turn lights on. I am deeply affected by my surroundings. If the house is a mess, I will freak out. Feel like everywhere I look there is more disorganization.

I don't like crowded places. Fear of going to new places. Don't drive at night.

I love changes in weather. I love the rain. I especially LOVE thunderstorms. I feel my best when it's raining. That's usually when I feel energized and want to leave my home. I don't go out much at all. Maybe twice a month. My husband does the grocery shopping as I am easily overwhelmed. I forget where I parked etc.

I am extremely intuitive. Psychic dreams of tragic events.

I am afraid of death.

I smoked from age 13- 27

I was on prescription antidepressents and anxiety meds after my concussion in 1998. I weaned off of all of these before becoming pregnant. I felt good and zoloft. I have not gone back on meds because I want to correct the imbalance.

Sex life is non existent. My husband says he is interested but makes no effort. He's not aggressive so I see him as weak, more feminine ... and I don't want to be the one in control all the time. He has lost himself in me somehow and depends on me for every decision. Him being weak (feminine) makes me feel like I have to make the big decisions and be more aggressive (masculine) SO in a way our roles are reversed and I HATE IT!!!!! I am not able to be soft like a woman - because he is. Then he says I don't respect him - and it's partly true. I respect him as a person - he's a hard worker and gives for his family, but as a lover and a husband - it's like HE is missing - no sense of self. I have become indifferent. I am rigid and harsh. He doesn't listen to me. I will say specifically what I need (time spent together) and he will still do what he thinks I want like the dishes. I tell him I don't care if the dishes reach the ceiling, I want us to spend time together ... yet he doesn't ever spend time with me and has since become the maid!

It's really sad our dynamic and not healthy for our five year old or our infant son. Our relationship changed drastically after the birth of our first child. She was very high needs ... and our marriage got lost somewhere.

I have worked with a homeopath, but can't afford treatment currently. I took Sepia 30 about 3 years ago. I took Arnica 200 about 1 year ago. That helped a little. I also took Thulium Muriaticum 200 during pregnancy. That helped a bit. I have taken Rhus tox for joint pain almost 2 years ago. I have not taken anything since a few nights ago where I took Belladonna 12c for migraine - which worked slowly.