ongoing cystic acne-HELP!

1. Describe your main suffering?
deep acne- mostly cystic that doesn't come to a head. i've had deep acne since puberty (about12-13) and i am now 35. in high school it was mostly my cheeks and mouth but later in life it has been mostly on my jawline. i have recently started taking 1 tbsp of diatomaceous earth (silica / fossilized algae) for the last month and cystic acne has started on my forehead- where i used to get an occasional (1 or 2 big bumps) every few months. now it is an ongoing and spreading breakout- very painful giving me headaches (stil also breaking out on jawline and neck). i have been on various antibiotics, topicals, and even accutane (120mg per day back in high school- had to stop because of cysts forming above my glands in my armpits, pelvis and buttocks). i used to eat a ton of sugar and have been on so many antibiotics i feel strongly i may have candida and probably leaky gut. when i take natural antifungals (oil of oregano, pau d'arco, olive leaf, etc.)orally or put antifungal/anti-mite remedies on my face (coconut oil, diatomaceous earth, borax) i break out in the worst way you can imagine. i am allergic to rice, oats, barley, eggs, soy, cats, and especially dust mites. i suspect i huge hormonal imbalance i am hairy on my face, odd hAIRS on face, chin, chest, nipples and stomach. my sisters have cysts on their ovaries but have no acne and definitely are more feminine in looks and nature than i am. my red face is itchy and painful and blotchy and earth and scarred (though it could and probably should be worse) my heAD feels like its burning up but my hands and feet are ice cold. i am cold usually and do not sweat enough- i just get super greasy and oily on my face. rare body acne, if any. acne worse at ovulation and menses- never really goes away --- EVER :(

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?

exteme fatigue, super achy lower back, unstable blood sugar (gets low- i feel faint) insomnia, insecure because of acne, anxiety, left chest pains ( where i seem to hold my tension) smokers cough (mostly on left side- scared something may be seriously wrong here) (been smoking 1 pack a day since 17- now down t o about 5 cigs a day- trying to quit, but helps my anxiety) sun gives me a headache without sunglasses

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical suffering?
Depression, loss of confidence and don’t feel like going out in public especially during the day when my scars/acne are in full daylight- feel super guilty because my son needs to go out and play and i can rarely bring myself to go outside in the day

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst?
thoughts that sometimes bend toward suicide because i feel like i can't live my life freely, but not willing to commit suicide because i really couldnt actually do that AND have a young son i could never abandon

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?

puberty

6. Which time of the day you are worst?
morning and afternoon- most new cysts pop up when im sleeping tho

7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same?

cucumber sometimes helps. i feel mentally better after a warm bath in the evening. i use alternating ice and warm compresses which help pimples go down . feel bad extreme cold and extreme hot- high humidity where i live

8. Do you think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)
menses is always a lot worse, worse after sugar, drinking


9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?

feel a little better in fall, if at all

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.
when i am not worried about my acne (ex- when ive had enough alcohol not to care- i am outgoing and witty ) any other time i am high anxiety, a little quiet and agitated- moody or angry even

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?
like something is brewing but chilly when its a cold rain and calmer when its summer rain

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?
not really it makes me feel as if im being mollified and loved but not understood

- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc?
sunlight gives me a headache without sunglasses, strong chemical perfumes (esp. floral scentsand overbearing men's fragrance also gives me a headache) - i dont love loud repetitive noises

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
weeping, talking to one self etc?
drinking and smoking- i occasionally mutter to myself or pace when i am esp peevish

- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?
my 2 1/2 year old son is awesome but he is definitely a 2year old- constantly pushing his boundries- so occasionally is an overload but he is super sweet and teaches me patience and reminds me to have a sense of humor - so in many ways he is a saving grace in my life. my man is absolutely amazing- he is my rock of love and acceptance- even at my lowest and worst. i feel i dont deserve him sometimes but also feel i just might because i am a genuine, and passionate person despite my many faults - i like to make others happy and am quicker to jump to others defense or aid whereas i am slow and fumbling when someone insults me directly. my family i can always count on and love but my folks dont get along and its tiresome to be around them together, but separately they are good company. my two older sisters are difficult for me sometimes- the oldest is seemingly perfect and the next is 10 years older than me but people think she's younger than me because we have a strong resemblance but i have bad skin and stronger features- i guess you could say there's some definite envy on my part because i feel people hAVE a natural aversion to me based on my appearance- like im dirty- but i am almost OCD where hygiene and a clean house is concerned. my brothers (older and younger) i feel most comfortable around because they don't care what i look like and nothing is a competition with them in my life. my friends ( the few real ones i have) i cherish and keep close to my heart. they dont judge me and genuinely care for my welfare- they are the few i actually accept consolation from and give consolation in due course- i have known them a dog's age or more


13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?
excessive though i drink at least two liters a day- i pee a LOT- espEcially since taking diatomaceous earth

14. How if your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?
sometimes none until my blood sugar gets low. if i over or undereat i get super tired

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand?
allergy foods-oats rice barley eggs soy but i get breakouts never indigestion

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?
I don’t feel i sweat enough i just get really oily-esp face

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?
once a day- sometimes constipation; loose stool if i drink alcohol


18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?

insomnia, dont go to sleep till 2 or 3 am - dont wake till 11 am . have been sleeping on my back with pillows under my knees because if i lay on my side (which i prefer) i break out in painful , deep cysts wherever i slept on my face

19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?
yeah, my sexual desire used to be abundant, now i shy away from being touched becaue i feel like an acne monster

20. How do you think you are different from others, if at all?
too reiterate- my terrible skin is my ultimate weakness- i hate when ppl give me unsolicited advice as i have tried almost everything under the sun and moon to no avail. i am also very creative and artistic and compassionate with an acute sense of humility and an intolerance for injustice.

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?

various antibiotics, retin a , accutane, biotin, antifungals (herbal) _BY THE WAY MY FRIEND GAVE ME ARNICA AND I RUBBED IT ON MY TEMPLES FOR A HEADACHE AND HAD A MAJOR OUTBREAK

22. What major diseases are running in your family?
Heart attacks, anyheurism

23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance
5'8' dirty blonde hair, blue eyes, ruddy skin , spider veins in nose, athletic build, broad shouders,little excess weightt mostly around love handles, kind of bulbouse big nose, hairy side although it is mostly light blonde with a few stray black hairs (chin, chest, abdomen, areolas) i pluck
24. (ONLY FOR FEMALES)

If you are not having normal menstrual cycles, please answer the following questions:

- Are the periods early, regular or late in general? How long do they last?
5-6 weeks for 5 days- very heavy- lots of bleeding and bloody clot looking things- sorry to be a lilttle graphic- painful cramping before and 1st day

- Do you suffer from any kind of physical or mental discomfort before, during or after the periods?
cramps day before and 1st day, bloating, irritable occasionally outright irrational emotions
- Is the flow scanty, normal or excessive?
excessive
- Is the blood thick bright red or pale watery?
Bright red
- Do you notice any clots in the flow?Normal blood clots (few)
yes seems heavy but no comparison to judge