hayfever/rhinitis (evocationer)

1. Age 36, male
2. Appearance : 80 kg medium built, 5'9' height , muscular

3. Country: Pakistan
4. Main health problem : Asthma, pollen allergy(hay fever) rhinitis.
5. When did this main problem begin :
I was asthmatic from the childhood, as I’d been told that walking in the garden made my chest produce wheezing sounds. As I grew a little, I turned out to be a quiet and a shy kid. At that time, I used to experience uncontrolled coughing coupled with wheezing and spitting out of phlegm but did not feel much of breathlessness. The breathing problem started somewhere in my teens, I started using inhaler and went through allergy tests/shots but no specific allergen was detected to be the triggering factor. I was periodically vaccinated with five unknown injections, promising a complete recovery on reaching adulthood. The problem persisted. Someone suggested homeopathy so I was diagnosed by a panel of experienced old homeopaths after which I did not use inhaler for one complete year. Their first line of action was to extract all the phlegm from my lungs that’s why they all interview me in detailed going to the extent of noting down the description of my phlegm. Since I felt better hence I did not pursue the treatment. Later on I could not trace them. In summer vacations I used to visit northern areas, had a great time there but one night due to asthma attack, I was taken to hospital, was injected with some corticosteroids medicine, which relieved me immensely. later on an elder told me that masturbation ruins ones life. This caution affected me a lot as I started regretting about my indulgence in this activity from an early age. Couldn’t get the feelings of regret out of my system but slowly the worry subsided with constant praying. As I grew things got worse with asthma/pollen but I had the greatest time while I was studying at college and university. Of and on I was taken to hospitals for nebulizations and injections. Then I got obsessed with my problem of bone snapping. When I used to sit or stand, a snapping/crunching sound used to come out of my knees. Not only knees but sometimes I felt the same phenomenon in my shoulder and elbow. I used to visit many doctors in this regard but they used to say I am a young man and that it’s not a big problem. Afterwards I started worrying about premature ejaculation, and therefore visited sexologists. They said it’s too early for them to judge my condition since I was not married. I used to feel deep regret after masturbation. Along with obsessive fears I was on inhalers mostly in pollen season. At that time while passing stool (constipation) a few drops of semen or puss like matter used to come out from my pee hole. Moreover, I couldn’t stop the flow of urine and after getting done with it a few drops used to come out on bending myself. When my father passed away I cried way too much since then I cannot cope up with bad news and I am extra careful and anticipative. The real problem started 8 years back when I collapsed due to asthma in pollen season. Hardly made it to the ICU, I was revived but I don’t know how as they kept saying that I nearly died. There I went through a heavy treatment of steroids and antibiotics. Since then I am on nebulization and inhalers, not to forget antihistamines during pollen season. After few years of that I again experienced hayfever during the initial phase of pollen season. I experienced a new problem of anxiety/ fear of not making it to the hospital during my journeys via bus. In that one-month stay I had a poor diet, I only consumed junk food and pepsi. When I returned back to my home town, the pollen season started afresh, hence I was double struck by this situation, constantly went to hospitals for nebulisations and steroid injections but this time fear of not reaching to the hospital in time aggravated the situation. Then one rainy fateful day at the office, turned my life around completely, I had an anxiety/ depression attack. I suddenly lost my purpose of life, heartbeat accelerated and I couldn’t even smell the typical fragrance of rain. I was given anti anxiety pill, which temporarily controlled the situation. However, I started experiencing the same with less severity whenever I used to sleep in the afternoon. My sleep at night went rapid like fainting all of the sudden. After that I tried homeopathy followed by visits to psychiatrist BUT TO NO AVAIL. (However, a year ago my depression to 80% has been cured via homeopathy) Later I was posted to a city having sea, there was no pollen there but I only experienced asthma related to anxiety over there which used to go away with constant running. Now I am posted back to back from sea area to dry land, where pollen related allergy again started.

6. Describe your personality in at least 20 words (e.g. stubborn, lazy, don’t want to work, always in a hurry etc.) : I get angered quickly, irritable and extremely indecisive. I was extremely shy in my childhood. I never had high ambitions or high self esteem. I sometimes indulge myself in daydreaming and fantasizing about doing things that I can’t achieve. I am the kind of person who cries during emotional or tragic movies. I often indulge myself in unreal worries and imagining unforeseen bad events happening to my family. I am lazy and slow. i am very lenient, helpful thats why mostly people take advantage of my mellow nature. My condition gets better when I get appreciated or receive a compliment by the opposite sex or I hear about any foolproof remedy of mood swings or other ailments. I’ve never fallen in love so I also regret and repent regarding my fate. Feel tense during exams and have stage fright. I am extreme nostalgic. I compare everything with the best moments I had in the past. Always reminiscing about golden memories of past, Perfumes used and music heard at those times take me back in the past. I help others all the time and feel happiness when they praise and thank me, it motivates me. I am highly indecisive, I cannot make up my mind regarding anything when I made to choose between different options, I end up choosing the wrong one and then I repent. My anger knows no bounds, but I cant afford to be angry these days because I start to faint when I get angry. I am humble and Mild, Agreeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Arguing, Irritating sometimes when I argue a lot.

7. Can you relate any event, which caused this problem
stated as above
8. What makes the main problem better (e.g. massage, pressure, warmth, cold, lying down, sitting etc.)
ASTHMA RELIEF:
Burping and passing stool, to certain extent, relieves asthma triggered by anxiety and spitting out phlegm also relieves symptoms of asthma.
Sipping a hot cup of tea somehow rescues me, followed by 2 puffs of inhaler
in air-conditioned room I feel relaxed and my anxiety drops down a few notches (summers). But in the morning (pollen season) I have too much phlegm accumulated.
Exhaling the air forcefully makes me feel a bit little better.
During masturbation my asthma totally vanishes and my mood swings/anxiety also subsides.

When I am regularly playing tennis and my stamina develops, especially in a city where there’s a beach.
RELIEF mood swings:
Things of interest like shopping and attending weddings deviates my thinking from it. When I receive compliment, especially from the opposite sex. When I hear about a good homeopath or about any permanent cure. . When I am having asthma problem. I don’t feel like sleeping at night, as I know that I won’t be feeling well in the morning. Daydreaming. The situation escalates whenever I think about it. Otherwise when I am busy, it subsides.

9. What makes it worse (e.g. massage, pressure, warmth, cold, lying down, sitting etc.)
I get a severe attack during tennis session after which I feel panic/fear that I would not make it (Pollen season). As a result, feeling of numbness starts shooting up from my leg area. It slowly subsides after 3 to 4 puffs of ventoline inhaler or when I take few chunks of food or when I take anti-anxiety tablet. When I eat pickles and sour things or juices containing preservatives also causes problems. Mostly it’s triggered after accumulation of phlegm in my chest due to hay fever. It can also be triggered upon laughing out loud or after I sneeze or when I hastily take water and it accidentally enters windpipe, after this there’s itching on the chest and back area. Asthma gets aggravated in the morning when I wake up in an air-conditioned room. When I lose my inhaler somewhere and cannot find it, which really gets me into emergency situation even if it’s a mild attack.

10. How do you feel mentally & emotionally during this problem (e.g. weepy, irritable, restless, sad, hopeless, fear of death etc.)
i used to feel hopless when i had severe depression but now theres slight hope. however asthma/pollen are worrisome. i worry that i might not feel that happiness that i used to feel in my college years, i worry about my families health thats why i stay close with them and abstain from going to distant places to enjoy. I cannot tolerate heartbreak.

11. What other health problems do you have.
OTHER AILMENTS
• stiffness in the nape area (Initial stage of Cervical Spondalosis).
• Very weak memory.
• Premature ejaculation.
• I feel like fainting when I stand up after sitting for a longer period specially after offering prayers (not major concern)
• Teeth grinding (bruxism).
• Sometimes my toes get stuck and stiff in some specific direction especially while I am driving (accompanied by pain) which gradually comes back into normal position on pressing them. The fingers of my hands also goes through such phenomenon.
• Experience a mild anxiety attack related to breathlessness, use inhaler but that tightness in the tummy does not subside till heavy streak of burping and gases takes place (pollen season) or when I pass stool.

• Sometimes when I feel the urge to urinate I feel difficulty in the beginning (1 SEC) after which the flow becomes normal. It has a foul smell, sometimes. After ejaculation sometimes I feel a lil pain in my prostate area.

12. What makes these other health problems better or worse (explain each problem)
mentioned above

13. What animals or insects are you afraid of:
these fears are normal like any other normal person, like fear from wasps and slimy insects, fear of being chased by dog
14. What situations are you afraid of (e.g. heights, closed spaces, ocean, darkness etc) I fear of drowning, closed spaces when I fear asthma attack coming, fear from ocean.

15. What occupies your mind mostly
thoughts like am I leading a joyful life like the way I used to in my college days. This is the reason why I ask everyone the difference of enjoyment level in ones childhood days and adulthood. I feel doing so many interesting things in a day but end up doing nothing and then regret not having done anything, I feel time is running fast but I am not taking any advantage. I have regrets about the choices I made so far. If I had been more extrovert, enterprising and ambitious I would have done great. I am simply clueless about what I want in my life. I have regrets not making first moves towards a good-looking girl and have always cursed my fate.

16. How do you respond to consolation & sympathy
they are the only things that I am surviving on. Plus I need words of encouragement and hope that things would get better. Need appreciation for motivation.

17. Do you want to stay alone or with people
I used to love my own company and solitude but now I need company and some distraction so that I don’t get to remunerate over worries.

18. How is your sleep
I feel sleepy all the time but I prefer not to sleep early or in the afternoon with a view that I’ll miss out on having good time while time/life runs out.
19. Do you have any recurring dreams
I just daydream, fantasizing things that I cant achieve. I don’t mostly have dream during sleep but when I do its about some misfortune related to my family members. When I often think about my father, he comes in my dream while me knowing that he’s gonna die, I express my love to him which I always wanted to but didn’t express it through words in his lifetime. Very occasionally I experience falling from high altitude in my dream.
20. Is your complaint affected by weather, if so, which weather affect & how:
pollen season is the worst and in winters I feel great as there are no allergies but in summers my asthma gets aggravated in chilling air-conditioned room and sometime extreme humidity also triggers my anxiety related asthma.
21. Do you normally feel hot or cold
I mostly feel cold, my hands are reported to be cold too on touching and sometimes they feel warm in summers.
22. What type of clothes you wear (e.g. tight, loose, around neck etc) I prefer medium but end up wearing a little tight ones

23. What foods you crave & love (not what you eat due to health or other reasons, rather what you love) I like chocolates, junk foods, steaks, pizzas and mostly sour things like vinegar in my soup and spicy food. I mostly avoid vegetables till now.

24. What foods you hate a lot: Mostly cooked vegetables but I don’t mind if they are served with my steak.

25. What taste you love a lot (e.g. sweet, salty, sour, bitter): sweet after eating sour and saltish

26. What taste you hate bitter and tasteless slimy things, having unpleasant odor

27. Do you like warm or cold food: warm food but I like ice cream as well.

28. Do you want to eat indigestible foods (chalk, mud….): no

29. How is your thirst (less, moderate, excessive)
I don’t mostly feel thirsty in winters but in summers if I don’t consume liquids I get panicked and asthma may aggravate

30. Do you have dry lips or mouth or both: little bit of both

31. Do you have any coating on tongue first thing in the morning, if yes, details . moderate white coating from center of tongue to upper area: white coating in the morning starting from mid tongue to upper area

32. Any taste in your mouth first thing in the morning (e.g. bitter, sour) : not as such much a little sour
33. How is your skin (dry, oily, rough, acne, pustules, boils, psoriasis etc) Dry and sometimes pimples erupt due to clogged pores/hair stem
34. Please upload here or email me a picture of your skin, nails, teeth, hair problems.: I will do that as I have grinded teeth, thin hair, yellowish skin
35. Details about your sweat (where mostly, how much, smell, does it stain, color)
its not that smelly but it leaves white stains sometimes. I don’t perspire much

36. Any problems with eyes/vision. No but they get red when I use pc alot or stay up late

37. Any problems with ears, nose, throat (e.g. nose always blocked, runny, discharge color)
During hayfever nose is extra runny and sensitive/itchy, stays blocked most of the time (some say possibility of polyps as I remember it used to bleed in childhood and I got operated where the doc extracted a piece of flesh from inside it), current examination shows that I have curved bone inside nostril. My eyes get runny too in pollen season and while yawning. Ears are ok but after extreme sneezing I also feel irritation in ear.

38. How is your stool (details of how often, consistency, any blood, any particular smell etc.) I am mostly constipated, not consistent. Now a days I am having abdominal pain coupled with irregular bowel movement/ gases (I am getting treated (allopathic) for probable ulcer problem but its still not been accurately diagnosed. My stool is often dark in colour.

39. How is your urine (details of color, smell, any blood etc.) weak and interrupted flow which gets better after ejaculation.

40. How is your sex desire (e.g. no desire, low, moderate, high, very high)
too much desire for masterbation, dirty thoughts but I ejaculate quickly and feel like doing it everyday.

41. Are you satisfied with your sex life, if no, why not
haven’t tried it practically but only problem may be posed by premature ejaculation .

42. Males genitals (any problems with erection, any pain, any itching etc.): just curved downwards, during prolonged erection it gets hardened too much (upper area) while lower surface is a little soft. Too much masterbation causes one of its vain to swell up and gets sensitive and a bit of pain is felt.
43. Females menses details (reply to all these points)
not applicable

44. What illnesses are running in your family

• Mother’s side (cance r )
• Father’s side : father passed away due to internal bleeding due to urine in blood( maybe kidney problem, my paternal grandmother was asthmatic)
• Siblings (brother/sister) both brothers have kidney stone problems
45. Are you taking any medicines (allopathic, homeopathic, supplements, acupuncture etc.)
Some of the homeopathic/allopathic medicines that I have used are:
1. Thuja 1M, (a couple of years back)
2. Ipecac 30C, (its combination with nat sulph 6x showed great results for asthma)
3. Staphysagaria 200C (prescribed on arrival of pollen season but haven’t used this one yet)
4. Sabadilla 30C. (prescribed on arrival of pollen season but haven’t used this one yet)
5. Arsenic album 200 (It increased my stamina and improved exercised induced asthma)
6. Nat Phos 6x (only for one week)
7. Nux vom 200c (Asthma relief 70 %) Tuberculinum 200c
8. (at this stage my Depression was gone)
9. Bryonia 200c (2 doses 2 days) with sulphur and tuberculinum (good response)
10. Calcium jodatum 30 (took it in last pollen season but didn’t help much)
11. Rush tox 30c or Hiper Sulph 200c (considerable improvement in allergy)
12. Bryonia 200c(considerable improvement in allergy)
ALLOPATHIC
13. Using antihistamines
14. Brotux (homeopathic syrup) it leaves my airways minty, which gives me temporary relief
15. Ventoline inhaler (4-5 times a day)
16. I also take general supplements (fish oil)and other vitamins but have stopped them as my ALT’s are raised
46. Have you had any surgeries or implants, if yes, give details : only appendix operation
47. Have you had any long term treatment (physical or psychological) : 6 months psychiatrist treatment for depression and corticosteroids course for asthma during pollen season
48. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual symptom or feelings? When I pull in my belly/ tummy a sort of sound comes from the area where the ribs end in the center just above belly.
49. Is there any kind of food, which your body can’t stand? When I drink cheap artificial juices containing loads of preservatives, allergy starts
50. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive? I feel hungry but not lately due to tummy problem. When I eat a lot I feel a slight breathlessness(anxiety related asthma) followed by spitting of phlegm
51. How do you feel about your friends, family: they are all I care for, I fear so much of losing them, I worry about them all the time.
52. Nature of work, what do you do for living? Its mostly a desk job, I don’t like it cuz of the discrimination involved at office, however I feel happy when I help a poor subordinate and provide justice to him.
53. How do you think you are different from others, if at all? I am humble but this I know that I am more sensitive and caring than any other, they say I am innocent and simple and very much prone to deceit.
54. Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc? I get very irritated by strong and potent smells (perfumes) and feel slight breathlessness too. But the fragrances that relate to my good memories take me to stage of ecstasy.
55. Which time of the day you are worst? During pollen season my condition worsens in the evening and very early in the morning.



please help me survive during this season of pollen

Simone I know the reason behind posting this link but you don't understand what I am going through. I need desperate medical help, its been 1 month that I am having stomach discomfort/gass problem/constipation and irregular bowels plus asthma/hayfever.i don't have time to wait for 10 days and then again 10 days and so on . When will the treatment start. I am only made to wait and wait. Will the treatment start after pollen season? I treated my depression here by changing homeopaths. Why don't you find me the one who is expert in the specific ailment i have?

Ok I understand. I think I am going to continue with his prescription. Thanx for the guidance, will mostly stay indoors, my hayfever has subsided considerably

I am so thankful to this site as it cured my depression. Since it is creeping in again with bouts of anxiety. Did all my medical tests so as to find the reason behind it until the doc referred me to psychiatrist yesterday. I need help again please let me give gist of my problem with little bit of background. Previously my anxiety and depression was triggered by a serious episode of pollen allergy but this time it is related to a decision related to my remarriage after my current divorce. Got introduced to a girl 2 months ago, so due to fear of repeating mistake (wrong decision) felt extreme anxiety during game of tennis followed by fainting spell. The weakness remains to this day with onset of breathlessness (after extended talking session) raised heartbeat and fainting spell followed by burping when I feel relieved. please anyone who is expert at resolving mental anxiety problems take up my case... will provide details once case is taken

Thanks a lot for taking my case, I appreciate it. I will start it from today as I had no access to a shop. Sir you said 5 drops of aurum 200 / pellets both at same time two times a day. I think you meant either drops or pellets right? I am going to get spring water for it as I heard it works better. I grind / clench my teeth all night with mild depression in morning.. better start your remedy from tonight... thanks once again

Sir just wanted to give you early update as my depression is gone on second day of using aurum met 200.. now it’s third day. Only mild anxiety during office hour ... breathlessness on talking but it’s short lived... plus I’ve got slight discomfort pressure on right temple and head above right eye... so glad about that depression thing... I hope it’s not too early to celebrate... thanks.. sir should I continue the medicine? Sir if you don’t mind I am sharing my previous success story pertaining to my depression on this forum https://www.abchomeopathy.com/forum2.php...

Sir my depression returned 50% on the day of your last post so I took another dose of aurum met 200 and depression vanished again. Only a slight anxiety attack was experienced during office hours but it subsided quickly. thereafter as per your advice I continued medicine with aurum on alternate days.. I met and hung out with the new girl and enjoyed depression free time (with no repetition in anxiety) . But after taking aurum met last night I am feeling depressed in morning on waking up. It’s like a switch going ON and OFF. I shall be proposing this girl in this week as I’ve left thinking about the other 2 options (girls) I have however I still feel that unfounded slight fear that she may not adjust with me in this country and I may not entertain her despite knowing she’s head over heels for me, feel so under confident. Sir I went thrice to pass urine last night and feel that such disruption in my sleep may be one cause of depression. Therefore I’ve ordered two supplements TRANQUIL SLEEP and ADRENASENSE by natural factors as I am sure my underlying problem is adrenaline exhaustion caused over time due to unsatisfactory job conditions plus anger towards system and bosses plus lack of tranquil sleep . sir advice please

Yes I admit I shouldn’t have continued aurum and sought your advice first . I am going to find Bach flower remedy No 39 BM homeopathy today as it’s hard to find here. Have continued kali phos. That depression was short lived that morning and subsided at work place. The following night I had I met my future wife and was feeling happy. Depression came in this morning with low intensity but now I am ok. In meanwhile I have made an updated gist of all my problems for your reading.
FEARS 1. Always dreading that a family member may encounter a medical emergency and the same would be communicated to me over phone or would hear their screams. 2. Constantly worried about old age of my mother and fear of losing her. 3. I fear that I may again go into depression for years without being cured. 4. Fear of not reaching hospital, which increases anxiety.
NATURE 1. I am extreme nostalgic and compare my present with my glorious past (when I was in early 20’s). Live in the past rather than correcting present. 2. Low self esteem, always belittling myself that I don’t deserve a high standard life or woman. 3. Feel anger against injustice and discrimination and often take out such frustration in form of imaginary fight (taking toll on my adrenaline). 4. Humorous and lively, love being in spotlight. 5. I try to be organised but in process I waste time. 6. Have good appetite for food. 7. Perfectionist. 8. Extreme anger. 9. Very sympathetic. 10. Seek advice and confirmation, cannot decide on my own. Indecisive/ unclear. 11. Live more in dreams fantasising (day dreaming).12. Hopeless despair and fear that depression may incapacitate even anytime.
PHYSICAL SYMPTOMS 1. Headache with pressure on temples, mostly on waking up or during argument 2. Breathlessness / panic attack (raised heart palpitations) during extended talking. 3. Frequent urination at night(2-3 times) also during journey(urine retention), flow increases after ejaculation. 4. Discomfort just under the right rib while driving / after passing stool (relief on burping).5. Bruxism at night. 6. Bloated stomach. 7. Feel dizzy on sudden movements or on standing up. 8. Marginal decrease in intervertebral disc space at C6-7 (Early stages of cervical spondelosis). 9. Polyps in nasal cavity. 10. Cramps of feet(toe) with stiffness.11. Bone snapping sound from knees and crunching sound from neck. Stiffness in back of neck, difficulty is turning head. 12. After urination few drops come out standing up. 13. Weak memory. 14. Raised ALTs for quite sometime. Liver(prominentperiportalvechoes fatty liver). 15. Had COVID four months back.16. Constipation during anxiety. 17. Low sperm count 40 mil/ml (60-120 mil/ml)
AGGRAVATION/RELIEF 1. Depression subsides when I am too busy in something or experience pain or other medical problem or spend day in open (sun). 2. Feel depressed in winter evening. 3. I at my worst on waking up. 4. Feel breathless during extended talks. 5. The thought that some Homeo medicine or supplement may cure me one day.6. Anxiety subsides during exercise. 7. Relief in headache after passing stool.

Sir I have started these medicine from 23rd and got flower rescue remedy last night... my depression has increased and so is my anxiety. I don’t feel fresh in the morning and my head is heavy and during office hours I felt anxiety during talking and even on reading a file, got disoriented and had to visit psychiatrist for analysis. Now craving for results of your previous medicine or medicines mentioned in my success story that I sent you through link... what should I do sir. I only get relaxed late at night which is not enough

Now at office I shared things with someone and it made me feel aloft better now..... at night I read a portion of a book “a subtle art of not giving a f...” it also raised my motivation but I don’t know what happens during my sleep that totally cancels all the progress....

Sir 7 days has passed but these days were the toughest for me in terms of anxiety and depression. Yesterday, on waking up I felt fresh (probably due to taking of tranquil sleep supplement) but as soon as started thinking about the girl I am about to marry I had sinking feeling in my gut and anxiety went too high that I felt suffocation... as soon as my brother discussed the whole matter of marriage and assured me making the right choice the anxiety went away and I started feeling love for her again (when I feel depressed I don’t even like any of my family members and I lose my appetite completely, I lost a lot of weight in these two weeks)... I am getting sick and tired of this vicious circle, I can’t my brother everyday to motivate me.. last night she came to our house , though I was anxious in beginning but then got relaxed and had good time but on waking up my mind keep on convincing me that it’s wasn’t that good time that I used to feel when I was young (too much negative thoughts).
That flower remedy gives me feeling of allergy during initial 10 secs of taking it.... I will be proposing the girl today but I am not my 100% today.. doc plz help I know it’s my own negative feelings but homeopathy had me made so calmer in the past or during ur previous medicine that despite negative feelings depression doesn’t creep in

Thanks. Sir after taking aurum met single dose last night at bed time, I felt 90% free of anxiety and 80% free of depression which is a very big relief and my interest towards girl has increased and I showed affection towards my mother as well... now going to buy lycopodium 30 and start it from tonight... single dose 5 drops in ounce of water?

Sir it’s 2nd day of taking lycopodium. Although I feel good in morning after convincing myself that choice I made in selecting the girl (no fiancé) is the best but I experience generalised anxiety more severely during office hours like becoming breathless on talking (not related to girl or anything else) and after temporary relief on stepping outdoors I experience burping. The duration of anxiety has extended but after coming back from office I had a good chat with fiancé but later after eating again depression took over with my head heating up and throbbing, slept early but couldn’t take the feeling out of my head that I once again made wrong choice of selecting girl... woke up early to these thoughts like my mind is in destructive mode... during that phase I don’t get attracted to the girl and even don’t like my family members and require constant reassurance that I made right choice.... although I admit all the characteristics of licipodium matches mine but I still don’t feel good ... can I start medicine prescribed by psychiatrist along with urs? I am so confused, please help

i was experiencing anxiety (raised heartbeat and throbbing and warming of ears) in evening with a lot of sleep. I took aurum mat during journey as per your advice , did not feel depression that night. In morning depression was minimal, played tennis in which I usually feel anxiety but it didn’t happen but after that 50% depression returned , was successfully struggling through it. Heard the news about the demise of my cousin who was battling COVID-19. Cried a lot and depression went away from evening till morning... now experiencing very minimal depression. That evening anxiety with warming of head and ears has gone but sleepiness stays...

I don’t know why but when my thoughts / mind shifts from my thoughts towards other serious issue in family or any aggravation in my medical condition other than anxiety / depression I temporarily don’t experience depression.