Meditation /twilight / deep relax FEAR

when i was a children i was always worried of ghost , presence and monster and had to have my sister near me to be calm and feel safe.(as i remember i was actually seeing monster and ghost anyway everytime i was falling asleep).

then at the age of 19 i had a Out of Body experience that really scared me because i was just finisced seeing a very horror movie, so i saw (in a almost real way) the monster and creepy figure of the film.
at that moment i screamed so laud and was so scared that (yes i know) i go in the bed of my parents (i was 19 what a shame). physically i had the heart pounding at 120bpm for 4 days all along (i was young and very healthy so i didnt worried about that).
but after that as years go, i tryied to meditate once i a while but i never actually could have a pleasant meditation as everytime i approac a deep relaxation the memory comes in and first my stomach hurt then my heart pound (not 120) and my left neck get a arterial pound consequantely, also i start to have digestive problem of everything and sinus headache after eating and all this last until i 'forgot' and dont try again to meditate for a months or so...

summing up , now i cant meditate or relax because i have the fear of having a same experience and seeing ghost or monster or scary figure , and when i try to do it , my stomach strike into my heart that pound and sinusitis start after eating.

do you think medorrinm or thuja(i dont like to be examined or judged of my work when did school) or phosphorus. could be useful?
or nux vomica for stomach also?
i really want to heal this meditation/relaxation/ghost/monster fear. even thinking 'ok now i get serious and meditate make the trouble appear.

P.s. please i would like a suggestion without the need to compile a long questionaire. thanks.