ill effects of masturbation

Dear dr. Showrav,Hello sir, how r u ? i hope you will be happy n fine as always. sir this is ahmad from india , age : 25 , height : 5'8 and weight : 65 ,i want to use homeo n herbal  medicine but first i want to tell you abt my past.sir when i was of 13 yrs i don't know how i started just to touch penis head over the cloth n then once i felt different enjoyment n i did this again to have that special enjoyment n eventually which turned into a habit of masturbation and on an avg. i did this once in a day and i kept on doing this for 4 years then i felt some weakness and came to know from one religious source that it is sin and can destroy my whole life, i.e., marriage life then sir i left it completely. i didn't masturbate even single time since 7 year and i m fit externally. no back pain, no semen leakage during, before and after urinating, glowing face but i have some major problem regarding sexual decease like undeveloped penis (i.e. same size as was in the age of 13 :( :( ), no firm erection, discharge withing 20 seconds without erection if i read anything erotic but before it was with erection and i feel penis is very sensitive n mind reaction is very fast for ejaculation, n i used ashwagandha q but after taking this remedy for 1 month , i felt like if i read anything that is arousal then i get discharged within 15 seconds without erection, sir may be i m suffering with premature ejaculation, sir i feel this PE is related with mind as i  can feel if there is involvement of mind in this then i get discharged fast n if ignore metal inclusion or control over mind then i can hold fir 1or 2 to 5 mins while reading anything erotic. i dont want to read anything erotic i just do this to check my mental capability to hold erection but it is most difficult to control more than 1 min.sir plz help me. i want to live normal happy married life. i need your help. i repented many times for what i did. kindly help me giving ur valuable advice. 7 yrs se i m free from madturbation. ab bht achhi health hai......95% recover ho chuka hun regarding external health but internally weakness hai ......mind, lung, heart, blood etc n all what u can understand better....so sir plz help me in curing this P.E or Erectile dysfunction or sexual weakness........
another symptoms: usually i forget small things like a key point in questions,forget the place where i kept anything like keys, books etc.

there are two veins visible on penis jo phle nhi thi ashwagandha q lene ke bad ho gyi hain but memory thik huyi hai ashwagandha q se.

sir i m also doing a big course of stdy n i need stamina n good memory power in this so i need your valuable advice.

one more thing i m taking avena sativa q n alfalfa q since 1 month...i felt dramatic change in body like body pr hairs ki growth fast ho gyi hai jo phle km the chest pr wo ab grow kr rhe hain, hands pr bhi....sir is it working for me or is it side effect ?

sir i have good grasping power but don't have good retention power for long period.

sir plz guide me...:( :( :( :(


i hope i will be quite fit externally as well as internally.......thank you.