Horrendous Insomnia

Well Good Evening .... Except most evenings for me are not. Please look on my profile. I have C. After my Op in Aug 2014 they gave me Hormone treatment . A pellet injection Zoladex. This reduces my Testosterone to Zero rapidly. Other Men in Radiotherapy with me suffered no side effects from this product. I had restless leg syndrome, itching skin like insects crawling beneath it and complete Insomnia. Initially I went 6 weeks with absolutely no sleep apart from the odd 20min nap , which was not even falling asleep. Then the pattern went to no sleep until my batteries , as it were , just packed in. I would then sleep for anything from 2hrs, 3hrs or 4hrs. The most would be 5hrs. This lasted for several months and I tried all natural remedies that I could think of. I found a brilliant Ayurvedic lady and the herbal medicine She Gave me helped me to have good 4 to 5 hours of sleep at least for 3 to 5 days. Then my ex-wife collapsed into severe depression and my daughters were impacted in a huge way. Huge amounts of stress resulted in my insomnia patterns returning. This meant no sleep until my batteries ran out. This became in the tail end of 2016 a cycle which would mean I could go ( working full time from summer of 2015 ) anything from 3 to 4 days to 3 weeks before I would be exhausted , not turn into work and maybe if I was lucky have 4 hours sleep. Recharge my batteries and back to the cycle. I would point out, at NO POINT had I returned to my Pre-hormone treatment natural sleep pattern of 7 to 8 hours. I just seem unable to get deep sleep patterns. I take a quality melatonin rich plant supplement, Magnesium , mindfulness etc etc. I went to Dr got onto 5mg Zolpidem. Worked first night Fri , had 8hours glorious sleep woke up feeling like I was 21 again. Then 2nd, 3rd night etc back to insomnia. Back to Dr and tried 10mg Zolpidem. Nothing ! I have to also add that lack of sleep has taken it's toll. I have stopped Tai Chi and practically everything I enjoy. After work and looking after my Teenage Daughters on the weekend I have nothing left. I have stopped my C program and I am not looking after myself as well as I should. Thankfully I still have an appetite but I have noticed even this had begun to be affected. Food still always makes me feel better. I have a decent breakfast and lunch and very little to nothing of an evening. I got referred by my G.P. to my local NHS Hospital Sleep Clinic. I am very disappointed. They let me down and I have to go through the whole process again with a new GP that I have to register to as I have moved area. It is important as they are supposed to be referring me to get sleep hygiene support and CBT Mindfulness counselling. If Zolpidem did not work they have no further drugs that will help. I have tried to Use ABC but I just have failed with my Insomnia but as a result of working on this stumbled on Mercury Vivis which in MM potency had a massive boost for my Immune System and an marked improvement with my C and PSA results. Currently with my insomnia I go several nights without sleep and this is simply my mind and body ( it really is a physical thing connected with C .... C changes cellular chemistry ) the melatonin and other supplements plus diet should be tackling this ? Mind just won't switch itself and body into deep sleep. So I just tend to focus on breath, relax and turn when uncomfortable. If I'm agitated at all , which is occasional, I take 50mg Tramadol to relax. I will point out I know I do not have an addictive trait , as I can take or leave Tramadol and I don't stress if I don't have it. I'll have a hot bath and something soothing like creamy sweet porridge to help relax. So finally if you still have the will , any help to get me into regular healthy sleep patterns will be very appreciated. Ask any questions , as personal as you like and I'll answer as best I can. I just want to sleep. More than Sx although once I get regular sleep I'd like to tackle the. Sx and relationship challenge as well as getting back to enjoying life as fully as I can . Kevin - Mr G .... B'ham UK