Severe depression and social anxiety..Kind attn. Dr.Pankaj Varma

Dear Sir,

Since childhood I have been very sensitive.Everyday after coming from school,I used to brood over the unpleasant things such as freinds making fun of me,the insults which occured to me,etc and take take them to heart.
But when exams used to approach I used to focus on studies and get good marks.
The same thing continued as I grew up.
But as I grew up I used to completely bother only about the insults and i became even more sensitive and completely cud not concentrate on my studies.However I took one year break after Inter ,focussed on my studies and got good rank in Engg entrance exam.Also otherwise I am very good in Academics.
In engineering , I was completely alienated from my friends group as I always used to be in my thoughts(like I always used to feel INSECURE,VERY TENSE,AS IF MY CHEST AND STOMACH WERE BEING COMPRESSED WHEN OTHERS USED MAKE TAUNTS AT ME).Also what I observed i am physically also very weak when compared to my friends.
Later I took some ALLOPATHIC ANTIDEPRESSANTS FOR 1 year.But they resulted in LOSS OF MEMORY,DIZZINESS IN THE DAYTIME,ETC).

Later, I started taking Homeopathy.
Ignatia 200
Later Rubrum 200 for 1 month with gap of 1 week.
Later Staphysagria 200 for 1 month (for SENSITIVENESS AND ANGER)
Later Staphysagria 1M for 3 weeks
later Arg. Nit 1M for HYPERTENSION.
later Nat Mur 1M for 3 weeks and NatMur 1M + Ignatia 1M for 1 week
and now presently NatMur 10M FOR MENTAL AND PHYSICAL GRIT.

Sir I felt Nat Mur SUITED ME FOR MY LACK OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL GRIT.
COULD YOU SUGGEST TO ME A MORE BETTER MEDICINE AS I WANT TO GO ABROAD FOR MY HIGHER STUDIES