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Hello Just Sayin’
I haven’t taken Gel 30 yet.

Update as of this evening:
I have been feeling little better lately, since yesterday afternoon. Overwhelming feeling is not there at this time. Jittery nerves have subsided at the moment. I am not sure if this feeling is temporary. My head is heavy though.

But I still want to answer your questions here:

Please see my answers below to your questions

What triggers the that overwhelms you, is it just performance anxiety due to the unfamiliarity of the job, or is it related to things that are peripheral to the job, like being extra careful not to make any mistakes that will invite negative criticisms that you cant handle?

Yes, I always try to give my best at the job, I am always extra careful to perform well. And my previous supervisors have always praised me for my good work performance which motivated me to do more good and get a good worker label.
I hate failures even though I don’t react much about it. But failures and criticism I can’t handle. They upset me a lot.
These days, whenever I apply for a job or whenever I get a call from an employer I start thinking that “what if I can’t perform as they expected ? “ what if they fire me due to my poor performance?” Etc.
I don’t wanna see myself as a failed employee or a failed mother. I have raised my daughter all by myself, She is a good kid But when she throws any tantrums or when I can’t handle her tantrums I feel like a failed mom and that makes me upset and I start yelling at her, may be out of that frustration.

Do you have a history of work-related trauma for the same reasons you are stressed about?
I can’t tolerate when someone being bossy on me or tries to control me unnecessarily. I have had bossy bosses in my life. But I am not much concerned about this issue at this time. I am concerned more about the performance. For some reason I have lost faith on myself.

Do you have any hobbies that you like to do in your spare time?
I like to watch movies, romantic and comedy movies. I like cooking.
I like traveling but can’t travel because of some financial problems.
I like watching dog videos. I had a dog few months back, but for some practical reasons I had to give him back to the shelter. I miss him.
I am a bit lazy as well. Not many things excites me.

How’s your sleep, do you have any recurring odd dreams?
My sleep is fine. Sorry, it’s hard to remember my dreams after I wake up But all I remember is I get weird dreams often.

Additionally: I really don’t like to socialize. I feel it’s an extra burden on my brain if I try. I feel so safe from any dramas , I feel mental peace in solitude. But still, I need 1 or 2 favorite people around me who don’t judge me.
I only talk to my mom, my daughter and my brother on a regular basis.

Thank you for listening to me as always.
[Edited by depression1 on 2025-03-14 04:37:28]

Hello Just sayin’
Hope you are well.
I took a dose of Nat Mur 30 3-4 days back.
I am not sure if it’s helping me Or I may need to wait more to see significant improvement.

Current update:
My head is heavy. My nerves are jittery. I have been missing my dad again.
I am still fearful about if I get a stressful job, I may not be able to do well. I now can say that I am more worried about the breakdown (my mental health) rather than my performance. I am fearful that if I take any job I will not be able to handle everything on my own both my household and my job. But I have been getting pressure to get a full time job. May be others it’s not that stressful but for me even a thought of doing full time job and taking care of my daughter seems impossible now. I am more concerned about my stress level.
I already feel too much doing part time job and handling my daughter. I know there are so many single parent who handles everything with calm. But my nerves are always jittery and I always feel stressed no matter how small the issues are. So whenever someone brings up a talk about me finding a full time job, it makes me nervous and helpless.
Nowadays I feel like, I have gone through a lot of stressful moments in life already so far and now I can’t handle anymore stress. “Not Anymore “
I just wanna say people around me “Leave me alone”.
So, I can say I am fearful about mental breakdown due to stress.
Please suggest.
Thank you for your help as always.

Hello Just Saying,
I am sorry for replying late. That is my fault. That won’t happen again.
Most of the time I come to check if I got a reply for my message after 2 days because if I do not see any reply when I check, I start panicking as a helpless and my symptoms worsen. So to be in the safer side I check this forum only after two days of what I write.
I am really sorry for this behavior. I will be regular on updates from now on.

I was waiting on my Arg Nit 30c potency to come by mail. It hasn’t arrived yet.
I have 200 potency of Arg Nit if I can take it .

My symptoms became prominent after the Nat Mur 30c dosage but those have been there forever.

Thank you.

Hello Just Sayin’

I had a dose of Arg Nit 30c last night.
I have been having mild burning sensation with mild ache inside the head since morning.

I am feeling better but can’t really tell how much better yet.
My head is not heavy now and the stressed out feeling is improving.
Fear of breakdown has also been reduced Not missing my dad in a depressing way. Hopefully my confidence level increases with time.
Will keep you posted if there is any further improvements.

Furthermore;
I have been experiencing low energy for the last few days(it was still there before taking Arg Nit) Get tired easily.

I still can’t hear good from my right ear. The cloudy feeling has been reduced by50-60 %. But the hearing hasn’t been improved. This is one of the reasons for my low confidence level.
Please suggest.

Thank you as always.

Hello Just Sayin’
Update as of this morning,

My head still have some amount of burning and squeezed feeling inside.
My confidence level has been boosted up by about 50-60% since after taking Arg Nit 30 c Dosage. Unnecessary fear of stressful moments have been improved by about 70- 80%.
Overall I am feeling much better than what I was going through. No sadness or depressed mood now. Overwhelming feelings of responsibilities have been improved by 50-60%.
Regarding confidence level , it’s been improved but I am still expecting little more confidence level. So I can trust myself like before. I am still hesitant to take a big step (getting a big project or taking a big responsibility at any job) . I am just doing a part time job at the moment which is a very easy job. I am still little hesitant to get a new job. I want to wait and see for few more days if this hesitation goes away.

I took a dose of Arnica 6c a day ago. My tiredness has been reduced by 60-70% now.
My right ear has been popping time to time. It’s still hard to hear good , more hard in the crowd. I haven’t taken Sulphur yet.
Thank you as always
[Edited by depression1 on 2025-04-06 16:57:08]

Hello Just Sayin,
I took a dose of Sulphur 30c.
As of this morning, I have not seen any improvements in hearing in my right ear. I only feel a mild pressure like feeling inside.

Hello Just Sayin,
Update as of Friday night.
The burning feeling has subsided by about 80%.
The squeezed feeling is still there, may be 20% remained.
Some kind of mild heaviness is there.
Physical Tiredness has not gone completely away. May be it’s better by 70-80%.

I am still hesitant when someone asks me to get a better job. I am still fearful of taking stressful jobs. Fear of mental breakdown if I take any such job, is still there. I am like “if I take those stressful jobs, I will definitely have mental breakdown as I can’t handle too much stress at a time”

I took Sulphur on Wednesday in the evening . I still can’t hear good. The pressure inside the ear has developed a blocked feeling again.
Thank you.

Hello Just Sayin,


Overall, I have been feeling so much better mentally, after the dose of Arg Nit 30c. Thank you.

The situation I tried to explain earlier was, my husband wants me to get a job in the IT field as I have some trainings and a little experience from my last job. My last job was just a part time job and it wasn’t that stressful. But if I get a full time IT job then there will be much more responsibilities, stress, expectations for me.
And if I take those jobs there will be too much pressure too much pushes to achieve the deadline too much of pressure for my brain which I know I can’t handle, I become panicky if there is a rush and deadline. I like to work in my own pace without any push or rush. I feel anxious when too much is expected in a little time. So my brain would not handle that kind of pressure. I have experienced similar situations in my other jobs before. That’s how I came to know I can’t handle when somebody pressurizes me for accomplishing something. It’s not that I don’t want a better job but I am scared to take a job and not be able to do the task as expected.
So I try to keep my brain safe by doing low pressure jobs which do not pay good and are of low grades eventhough I am a well educated person. I am not doing a job which commensurates with my qualifications.
My nerves are not jittery all the time now as I had mentioned in my previous messages, but only while I feel pressure or burden in my brain.
Right now when I tried to explain things to you, I had to put pressure in my mind to get the sentences to write and my head is heavy again. I am hoping this will go away. But even a little pressure on my brain gives me that mental weakness or weak brain feeling and pressured brain feeling. I don’t feel good when i feel like my brain is not strong enough to tackle situations.

Hope this may help you know my mental condition.
Please ask me more if I need to explain more.
Thank you for your help.